Monday, April 07, 2008

It's Amazing!!

I am actually having so much fun packing. I have always hated to move but this move isn't that bad. I am moving somewhere that Asha and I can make new memories for just us and I will be able to decorate any way I want. I can even pack how I want. I never realized how many things I wanted to do that I couldn't do when I was married.

There were so many things that I wanted to do but were made to feel were wrong or told that I was doing it wrong. Packing was always a nightmare because I guess I never did it right and would have to listen to that the whole time I was packing.

I was never allowed to put too many pictures on the walls or shelves because they would look cluttered but I love pictures and I love to see my girl all over and now I can. I was never allowed to have too many things on the counter in the kitchen because it would look cluttered and now I can have whatever I want on the counters. It will be my house and I can decorate however I want. I could make everything purple if I wanted to and there is no one to tell me I can't. It is an AMAZING feeling!!!

The apartment will be mine all mine and I can do what I want. I haven't had the feeling in almost 11 1/2 years. That feeling of being pushed down and held down is gone and I feel so light and free. I can be me again. I forgot who that was for soooo many years and I am finding me again and I actually like her. She has grown and matured and I really like her. I haven't liked her for close to 9 years now and it's nice to actually like myself. It's a new feeling one that I have NEVER had before in my whole life.

Life is good and I am enjoying it so much!! Thank you everyone for your support and wonderful comments!! Love ya!!


L L said...

You are free to be YOU...let you light shine!!!